I feel like such a cliché
girl says for years
she doesn’t want children
then one day she cries
at the sight of a mother
nursing a baby
she holds one in her arms
and thinks
I want one of my own
so here I am
my personal anxiety demons
several years of grad school
many more of debt
all quite far from motherhood
and wishing I was
a few steps closer
but very unsure
what all these feelings mean